We are on the 3rd week of the challenge and I have a lot of catching up to do! Sigh.
Anyway, please give me a chance. I'll try to do my best to make up for this challenge. I'll be doing a few adjustments. For example: for some days when I really couldn't think of what to write, I'll just replace it with the succeeding topics just so I won't get stuck. Deal!? Deal.
For today's topic, I was actually to think of two. I know the challenge asks for just one but let me give you two.
First....I never learned how to swim.
I remember that my family did try to send me to swimming lessons when I was younger but I said "No." Why? Because you have to be in a swimsuit. And I don't wear swimsuits. Well, I do now at times, but I am still not confident. I might have tried wearing swimsuits recently but expect me to be just in one corner or with a huge beach towel wrapped around me whenever I'd go walking around. Case on point: I grew up thinking that for one to be in a swimsuit, she should have THE body. And I am not talking about just any kind of body. You know what I mean. I know, I know. I am absolutely a moron to think that way. Now that I am already an adult, all the more that I am not confident wearing a swimsuit. I guess that's how it is when you didn't get used to it.
When I was younger, I can't remember if rash guards are already available. From what I remember, swimsuits lang. And so since I don't like wearing swimsuits, that means no swimming lessons for me.
My husband did try teaching me how to swim a few months back. The result? We always end up fighting! Hahaha. So we decided to stop or else we might end up getting an annulment. LOL!
Second thing I never learned? I never learned how to forgive myself. I always forgive others on whatever they might have done wrong to me, but I don't know how to do the same for myself if I did wrong to others. I wish I would learn how. Sometimes the guilt is too much for me to bear. And that guilt I often use as an excuse whenever they would do something wrong. I'll always be like "Oh, he/she did that because I did her/him wrong in the past. So it's fine." But yes, it's absolutely not fine. But because of what I did, I just end up blaming myself for whatever that person would be like towards me. I wish I'd be like them at times. But I simply can't. I easily get angry, but I can't hold on to that anger for long. So I guess there would be nothing in this world that I won't be able to forgive. Nope, I am not mabait. Tanga might be the right word.